Like many Americans, I have been spent my whole life focused on my body image. At a young age it became apparent to me that I was a “big girl”. I was always larger then my classmates. From that, began my life long journey of trying to lose weight. I used diet pills in high school that took care of all the extra crap I was eating. It was a win/win situation. I ate whatever I wanted…… metabalife took it off. So began my inappropriate relationship with food. Without the diet pills in college, I gained 70 pounds. After graduating, I began working it off by using whatever fad diet was available and yes, I found an even better diet pill. I lost 72 pounds in a year and thought I had won the battle forever! The hard part was done. Wow, was I so wrong!
I was still living in the vicious cycle of binging and then hitting the cardio hardcore at the local gym to work it off. Slowly, the weight crept back on and before I knew it, I was miserable and 70 pounds heavier….again. I finally realized that I had a problem and that it was about so much more then “being skinny”. I was addicted to the effects that the “food high” was giving me. If I just ate through my feelings, I wouldn’t have to deal with them.
I was introduced to BFC through a friend and immediately knew it was the answer to my prayers. Unlike the gyms of my past, this was a small group of people that instantly made me feel like part of the family. Day one, I knew it was what God intended for me when coach Chris prayed for us before the workout. I had found a home with BFC bootcamp. I loved that the workouts were always different and always challenging but what kept me coming back were the true friends that I had made. Two weeks in to my new adventure, the bottom dropped out from under me in my personal life. As everything around me began to change and crumble, BFC was the constant that I looked forward to. That first workout back, coach Chris could see the pain in my eyes and I will never forget what he said to me, “Just put one foot in front of the other.” It became the single most important statement in my life. I had no idea what was in front of me but I knew I could put one foot in front of the other.
Next Stop- Level 1
In May, Chris asked me if I would be interested in beginning CrossFit Level 1 training. By this time, I had been introduced to the CrossFit community and saw what amazing athletes the lifestyle turns out. I no longer cared about the weight, I wanted to be a CrossFit athlete. It has changed my life! It is fast, intense and fun. Instead of relying on a diet pill to get rid of fat, now I rely on the muscle mass I am creating. I feel solid. I feel strong. I feel like I can do anything that I put my mind to. CrossFit is unlike anything I have ever tried. It takes my mind, body and soul to complete the prescribed work on the board. Now my days are filled with thoughts about my workout or research on a specific technique. My food choices no longer are made from what emotion I am dealing with that day, instead they are made by determining what will best fuel my body. Sure I am losing weight, yes I am in my skinny jeans but even more than that, I LOVE MYSELF! For the first time in my adult life, I am applauding myself for the new challenges I am conquering instead of beating myself up about the way I look. CrossFit is a lifestyle that I wholeheartedly commit myself to for the rest of my life.
BFC’s programs and members have pulled me out of some pretty dark places. I have a place to call home and friendships that will last a lifetime. I LOVE BFC (now CFW)!